1. Wow! Thank you for baring your soul and writing something which must be uncomfortable. Most whites don't want to admit that they're part of a system, and if they realize, they are happy to keep living in it the way that they do.
2. You must get a lot of name-calling hate mail. There is nothing worse to some whites than a "race traitor" among them. You are shunned for reaching out to the other side.
3. It is difficult, as you know, for many whites to get rid of the "zero-sum game" mindset. Rather than look upon one another's gifts, as you do, they fear that any "benefit" to someone different is a loss for them.
4. If you haven't seen these already, then may I share them with you? Thanks.
https://medium.com/afrosapiophile/white-people-are-just-as-smart-as-black-people-221c46501f8e
https://medium.com/afrosapiophile/five-daily-disses-that-demonstrate-white-privilege-1e979c4f9af7